PITCHFORK

On a lighter note, I am going to the Pitchfork Music Festival tomorrow! I'm seeing Flying Lotus, Sleigh Bells, and Danny Brown. My dad is taking me, wants to see Schoolboy Q. Very, very excited! Hopefully one day, I'll perform in this kind of thing! *crosses fingers*

HARDCORE BLOGGING FOR HEALING

In a post from way back, I mentioned how well my group of friends functions. How we are what we are and don't care what people think?

I was wrong. I think. 

My group of friends... isn't a stereotypical group of people. Most schools and places have the standard groups of people that everywhere has- jocks, preppy girls, nerdy guys, nerdy girls, band geeks all that- 

I don't know 100%, but based on stereotypical things like that, I really can't say we fit into the standard.

I guess you could call us those people who sort of watch the rest of the socialsphere from the outside and judge it like we're involved. Now, I didn't always think it was like that. But with recent drama going on with my friends, I'm starting to think that more and more. 

I was starting to feel like my friends were sort of buddying up and everyone sort of had a "best friend" in the group who they were extra close to, even though we were all really close. My conflict was, I felt like everybody else in my group of friends did, and I had nobody like that. I was starting to feel... optional. Like when we all went to go hang out, I wasn't the first to get called. I wasn't necessary.

I have my own issues, however, and I was thinking to myself maybe I'm just overreacting and stressing out about something that I'm just blowing out of proportion. But no matter how much I told myself that, I continually felt left out and strange... it didn't feel like it had in the past. 

So, just to have some sort of closure on the situation, I decided to test it on someone who I thought I could trust and go to in confidence to see how they reacted if I tried to explain myself. What I got was the biggest explosion of rude judgmental behavior thrown in my face. I was hurt and I didn't know what I wanted to do.

I still don't know what I did to be treated like that. I made up with my friends, but the feelings haven't gone away. Everything is a song lyric I guess, though. I try to invest myself in things like the album so I don't have to focus on worrying myself over something that still could potentially be nothing. I hope I didn't hurt anyone I care about. 

12.21.12

All versions of Bloodlines will be released on December 21st, 2012. 

(((xxxo)))

Less Slack, More Blog

I promise. No for real tho I'm like gonna get back on this blog. I make a lot of super important announcements on here.

XRQ

I've written a treatment almost, for a new record. I know it's way too early to be planning a thing like this, but like I've said before, I really never stop writing, and Bloodlines has been finished in that respect for a long time now, and I don't want all these new good songs to go to waste. I'm not sure what I'm going to call it yet, but the mood is going to be a lot different from the stuff you've heard from Bloodlines so far- I'm taking the music in a happier direction. I've been listening to happier stuff, and I'm an overall happier person when I'm writing these songs. The songs that are done already (there are about five) have an irony to them, where the song is very light, but the content is very dark. It's sort of a compromise between my lyrical style, but also my need to make my songs sound different.


I'm constantly writing, so it's really no surprise to people when I have new songs up- Bloodlines has been out of the writing phase for a really long time, I'm just doing a lot of production on it. That doesn't mean I just stop writing. I always write, and then after a long time, I pick out my favorites and make a new set. That's how Bloodlines started, and that's probably how things will start in the future.


I'm a happier person, that's why. I think lyrically, the songs are pretty much consistant with the way I write, but it feels good to have a change of pace with these new songs.