INFORM THE PEOPLE

THIS IS IN BOLD PAY ATTENTION THIS IS A REALLY IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT SERIOUSLY LIKE IF YOU DON'T KNOW THIS YOU REALLY SHOULD DON'T MAKE YOURSELF LOOK STUPID LATER ON.

Okay so this new work I was telling you about? I'm like... recording and finalizing. I don't want it to be a companion record to A Censored Sunlight because it is such a departure and such a collaborative record... so, tentatively, the new album will be called "...And The Sweet Nothings" and released under the new stage name Mike Mansion. However, I'm not sure I want to have two separate stage names, so we'll see. This is all still tentative unless otherwise noted. Very important details follow:

Zero To Sixty

(Produced by Sinthetic, DJ Gadget, and Planet JazzBass)

Conditions

(Produced by Mr. Funktastic, Rod Ridan, and Weazel Beats)

Modern American Beauty

(Produced by Siro and The Dream Machine)

Lyfe+Lyberty.gif

(Samples "For Forty Days" by Apollo 440)

Pets

(Produced by Miles 200, Roseerin, and Mr. Robot)

Gang War For My Love

(Produced by FerryTerry and Mr. Funktastic)

idcily

(Produced by Alivid Life and Minor2Go)

Realism/Surrealism

(Produced by MCHN and Weazel Beats)

Not Your Friend

(Produced by Nick Malone and Liz Berg)

Queen of Box Sets

(Produced by Chris Neal, Loopfreak, and Vizun)

^^^THIS IS THE OFFICIAL TRACK LIST^^^

Other Stuff:

"idcily" will feature vocals and writing from Abby Schwarz. Another collab is expected elsewhere on the album.

You've already heard "Lyfe+Lyberty.gif" but by the time you hear it on the new album, the whole song will be an original rap. (SAMPLE CHARGES ARE A LOT ESP. FOR MY SONG CHOICES)

The first single will be "PETS." I will announce the release date when I know it. The single artwork is below. The ACS may or may not be replaced, we'll see.

((xxxfreakingo)))

I Have Seen Your Light

Quote meant something to me- I paraphrased it out of the southern dialect of Of Mice and Men to something more meaningful (it used to be "i seen your light") and it was during the conversation between Lennie and Crooks in which Crooks tries to be full of pride in defense of his race and wonders why a white person would come near him without the intention of hurting him, and Lennie just says "I have seen your light."

Now, the author probably didn't mean it like that at all. He was probably just going with the story and saying "I saw you had a light on so I came in," but I believe art is open to interpretation, and I interpreted it as a double meaning- not only did it mean what the story wanted, but it also means something about interconnectivity- how one person can be so unified with the world around them that they can "see the light" in other people. I want to be able to do that, and I feel like we all get better at it every day.

I have seen the light in all of you. But can you do the same?

(((xxxo)))

Working Hard Or Hardly Working

Just letting everyone know that the reason why I haven't been blogging recently is because I've been really hard at work making new music for you. The most recent thing I've put out was my Paris mixtape about a month ago (which is going to be dropping in price from five dollars to a whopping FREE because mixtapes are meant to be free) and my new stuff is going to be coming soon. So here's a little summary of my music as of right now.

As far as Bloodlines goes, it's coming along nicely still. As you all know, the writing has been done for a really long time now, which is how I've had the time to be producing MULTIPLE projects at once- I might even be releasing the new one under a separate stage name because it's honestly such a huge departure from what you've heard so far. I'm in and out of the studio finishing that up, and December 21st, 2012 is still the tentative release date.

I've been working through a site called Looperman which is pretty much this amazing way for me to get royalty free loops without being the electro industry's artistic muse, and I've heard so many great things- I think that producers and the people who remix tracks get so much less credit than they really deserve- I haven't connected directly with these producers but they are doing fantastic new things for my sound. I'm really proud. Anyway, I'll list the producers later because this post is gonna have some SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENTS.

Anyway, keep an eye out for some potential collabs on Bloodlines (cough cough, Opaque Winter is a duet maybe, cough cough) and also make sure you're prepped for the release of my new EP which may or may not be free, I haven't decided yet.

Anyway here's some of the details on the new stuff... ***DRUM ROLL PLEASE FOR THE AFOREMENTIONED SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENTS***

This is the artwork for the new music!!!! It was photographed by Neal Fowler, the same guy who took the picture for the Silicon Nightmare, Midnight Fission cover art. I have the names of some songs that are going to be included, but I don't want to call it the final track listing, because some more could be added, some could get chopped. I also don't have a release date for you all yet. But here are some of the song titles!

ZERO TO SIXTY

(prod. by Sinthetic, DJ Gadget, and Planet JazzBass)

CONDITIONS

(prod. by Mr. Funktastic, Rod Ridan, and Weazel Beats)

MODERN AMERICAN BEAUTY

(prod. by Siro and The Dream Machine)

LYFE+LYBERTY.GIF

(samples "For Forty Days" by Apollo 440)

PETS

(prod. by Miles 200, Roseerin, and Mr. Robot)

GANG WAR FOR MY LOVE

(prod. by Ferry Terry and Mr. Funktastic)

The first single from the record, you all have heard already, and hopefully seen my psychopathic music video for... I'm talking about Lyfe+Lyberty.GIF.

I have another single coming out before the release, and I'll let you know what it is when I know. Until then, enjoy the first song and expect amazing new music soon! 

(((xxxo)))

INTERNATIONAL

This means the world to me, all of you. Let's cover the whole map with green!

(((xxxo)))

THE MIDDLE MAN

So here's the story behind this new track.

While my guitar is broken, I decided to dabble in production a bit and I just recorded this one. It's kind of the song that fuels my "I'm the one to watch" statement- it's just that song that I feel like proves myself over other teen singer-songwriters.

One of my goals with this track is to show that I don't just write these songs that are all doom and gloom- I am a versatile lyricist and songwriter. I can write a song that is this weird indo-hybrid-soul-rant and make it work just as well as one of my more stripped down pieces. I hope everyone likes. Here's the lyrics.

I will never know the story told
The day I was left there
Shining like gold

The day I was born
They resented my name
The place I was born
Looks at me with shame

Boy's Town, downtown, dirty freak
Dollar store man and
Lyrical cheek

You know I'm no good
Angst ridden teen
The place where I am
Is not where I've been

Dollar store
Drug whore
Take me away
Cos friendship hurts
But nothing is worse

The rise and fall is a funny thing
It was all fun and games
Until I started to sing

Oh, truth hurts but it's better than
A prison shank
From the middle man

DIRTY DOWNTOWN TRASHY DETROIT BOY'S TOWN CIGARETTE-TINGED CINEMATIC PULSE RACING NOIR GENTLEMAN GAS STATION PUNCH DRUNK SONGSTER KING OF DIAMONDS

In case you missed the new track:

SURPRISE NEW SONG

THE MIDDLE MAN
FROM MY NEW MIXTAPE THAT'S COMING SOON CALLED PARIS!!!! (((XXXO))) ENJOY MY LOVELIES

New Pages

Just put some new pages up on the blog!

LITHOGRAPHY: For all the lyrics from the album (and maybe some subtle hints at new ones...)
MUSIC PLAYER: Free streaming of all the songs from the Midnight Fission EP and the album.
MERCH: External link to my website. Shirts and Custom Converse.

(((xxxo)))

TEMPORAL AGNOSTICISM

And I suffer every day.

I have a very small conflict with my family as of right now. I'm not asking for anyone's opinion with this one- tonight is gonna be a ranting night. 

My family is, primarily Jewish. It's complicated, because both of my parents are mixed between Christians and Jews, and then they had me. The holiday season is nice, but with mildly awkward undertones. Anyway, as much as the average person does, I do a fair amount of thinking about death, religion, afterlife- that kind of thing. And I decided that I was Agnostic- I feel like until we experience death, we can't make judgements about deities and the afterlife. I also feel that religion causes a lot of fuss and fighting about essentially nothing. Isn't it better to stop questioning and start living in hope of witnessing what may or may not await?

Here's the conflict. The Christians in my family are very Christian and the Jews in my family are very Jewish. When they heard of my thinking and recent decision I made for myself as a person, I sort of got attacked.

"Well his mother is Jewish, so he is also."

This would be a valid argument if I wasn't a religious mutt. But even if I was 100% Jewish on my mom's side, would that really even matter? I'm not "Jewish by blood"- no one is! Religion is not the same as nationality. You choose to be Jewish, or Christian, or Agnostic, or Atheist, or Buddhist, or whatever- you don't choose to be American, or Russian, or Mexican. Most kids just grow up in a household of that religious variety and choose to adopt it for themselves. I'm not most kids. I made the decision to be who I am, and if you have a problem with that, it's none of your business anyway.

Let me be me. And if I change my mind, you'll all be the first to know. 

(((xxxo)))

OFFICIAL FINAL TRACK LISTING AND ALBUM COVERS FOR THE DEBUT ALBUM FROM A CENSORED SUNLIGHT, BLOODLINES.

Standard Version:

1. Temperance

2. Sick

3. Bloodlines

4. Not Your Friend

5. Light

6. Reality in the Trenches

7. Come Find Me

8. Sell, Sell, Sell

9. When In Rome...

10. Hollywood

11. Midnight Fission

12. Opaque Winter

Deluxe Version:

13. Here I Am (Mainstream Love)

14. The Head + The Heart

15. A Brief History of Pain

Bloodlines (Lady SnowBlood Remixes)

1. Bloodlines (Remix)

2. The Head + The Heart (Remix)

3. Not Your Friend (Remix)

4. When In Rome... (Remix)

Lady SnowBlood Remixes will be released in 2013, soon after the standard and deluxe releases. All remixes will be produced by Kurt Splitt.

KILL YOUR BABIES

There is an old songwriter's moniker that bluntly states "kill your babies." It means that every lyricist on the face of the Earth thinks that each of their creations is equally as beautiful and perfect as the next. The phrase is simply a wake up call to those lyricists, especially ones like me. Commercially, not every song is going to be a smash like it can measure up to be in your head. 

I have never really had this issue, especially now that I'm writing a follow-up to a record that I consider to be stellar- it's very easy to draw comparison and realize that not every song is the best song I've ever written. But I refuse to write an album with a filler track. Or multiple filler tracks. If I don't love what I write, then other people definitely won't. 

I'm incredibly excited to have the time to write again, and I've found inspiration through some really everyday stuff- for example I just finished up a song for the second album called "Innocent Eye." I got the name in English class, where we were talking about points of view in literature, and one of them was called Innocent Eye- it described any work in which a child was telling the story. 

I was probably the only artsy weirdo who did, but I took serious offense to that. I'm a child, and I've listened to my debut a million times, and I think I tell a damn good story- why do "children" need a separate category? We're just as capable as anyone else to convey a story. The song is an angry one, as you might have expected. But not in the textbook terrible way you might think. It's teen angst, it's irony. It's not one of my babies I'm about to kill.

I get scared though, because I don't want to write a whole album on the "kill your babies" theorem until I've 1-uped my way through a twelve song set. I need to be equally happy with everything. I just want to feel the same about everything.

(((xxxo)))

Nick 

A Brief Summary of My Upcoming Record

I guess that I really haven't said very much about my record, Bloodlines. It comes on on December 21st... so I figured I would give some background information on the album.

Bloodlines is... this is a hard thing for me to describe because after I wrote the record, I didn't even know what it meant. Whenever I write, a lot of times I don't know how I feel until I see it all there on paper, and even then I have to interpret that into what must be going on in my head. Anyway, after a lot of that process, I played myself the rough demos of each track and I realized that it wasn't fitting into any category of mainstream music right now. So, I decided to sort of set up my little LP camp in the empty grey area that's only inhabited by like... Adele, Florence and the Machine, and Bjork. The lyrics are really deep and confrontational, but its something that the mainstream crowd can enjoy too. It's a very mellow record, but its like laid-back to the point of apocalyptic 'Well, I guess I'll just have to sit around and wait to die' kind of thing. It's very cool and diverse. There's my typical style in there, but I mess around with some different genres in writing styles too. If I had to describe me as a musician, it would be like if Florence Welch and Jack Johnson had a musical love child. And I think that vibe really reflects on the record.

The record actually started when I wrote the first single, "Temperance." My parents had just gotten divorced and everyone kept telling me "Oh, it isn't your fault! This had nothing to do with you! It was a completely separate adult decision," and all this junk, but inside me I still needed a reason for why this could be happening to me, and I wanted to blame myself just to fill a void inside me so I could be sort of sad all the time, but still be able to function. That's why it was called Temperance- holding back from something frowned upon.

Songwriting actually started as a venting method for me, so when I was sad, I could write a really mean, emotional, and angry song about it and just have the feelings out of me. After "Temperance," my work started forming a concept album- I wrote a treatment, kind of. It's not a story, but more of a theory.

When you're first born, you have your entire family come to see you and be there for your first days. Of course, grandparents and uncles and aunts and cousins all have to leave you eventually. And as you get older, aren't you really just being further and further separated from the caring and safety of the people who will always love you? You leave your parents behind eventually, whether it's through moving out or blocking out- you leave your siblings, and eventually you're all on your own. From that point on it's a struggle to find someone else to save you from the solitude and to repeat the cycle. 

My theory was that my separation time lapse was much shorter than everyone else's- I wasn't seeing one of parents at any given moment. They were gone- the separation was halfway active every day of my life. And I was barely even in high school when I wrote that first song. 

The liner notes on the album are going to be really focused on the A Censored Sunlight Theory of Separation. I want a picture of a very happy looking family on the first page, and have one family member disappear with each page until you have just me sitting there. 

Don't get me wrong, I am so not as sad and deep as I appear on the surface. This was a very sad record to write, and it was a very sad time for me. I'm done with it now, but the emotions will always be there in music that I couldn't be any more proud of. 

(((xxxo)))
Nick

FIX ME

So, I have learned another lesson about myself. I'm a really stubborn person and I always think I'm right. It might just be the teenage mentality, but I think I take it to new extremes. I refuse to believe that anyone could ever have a logical reason to be rude to me or take offense to anything I say or do.

I'm not saying that I think I'm perfect. I strive to be perfect. But I'm not. It's a painful lifestyle. If you recall one of my many venting posts in which I was "hurt via confrontation"- it turned out to be a misunderstanding from both sides that I worked up inside my head to be a deep mental battle. I've made amends with my friends and I'm in a good place with the majority of them. I decided to just swallow my pride and say I was sorry so I could move on instead of dwelling on some stupid fight. I can't afford to be in a rough place with my friends, especially when I'm heading into my freshman year of high school. That'd be terrible. 

I learned a valuable lesson this summer and it's just to not worry so much. There are very few things in life that truly matter to the point of where your mentality should totally change. I can't afford to be depressed and anxious that everyone is scrutinizing me wherever I go- I need to keep the superstar mentality. 

(((xxxo)))
Nick

My Writing Process

Just wanted to take some time out to describe this to you, because I don't think we've been over this.

As you all know, (or should know), I am in the midst of writing my second record, and recording and finalizing my debut. I have a very set writing process- it's pretty simple, but I use it in every song you will hear off the first record.

The way I used to write was, I would write lyrics and a melody first, and then hope to be lucky and find a musical arrangement to fit it. This turned out to be not so great, since I used it before I even was A Censored Sunlight- I wound up with a huge pile of great lyrics and melodies with absolutely no musical direction to them. That sucked.

So what I turned to was writing musical parts first and then writing lyrics over it. In this way, I feel like I have more honest lyrics because once I have a great piece to write with, the thoughts start flowing from me and I don't overthink about how I must be feeling about a situation. It's almost my downfall as a songwriter in that sense- I don't really even know how I feel until I see it on paper. From there, I find my own meaning in it. 

TANGENT: This is the goal of my lyrics. I don't like to tell what my songs are about because when my fans hear the backstory, they start to connect it to that scenario every time they hear it, and then they might not be able to relate. But, if I leave the mystery in my words, everyone needs to find their own meaning, and in that way, my lyrics have a different significance to each listener. It's a system I've learned to love. 

Anyway, I my method is why Bloodlines sounds like it does (BRIEF TANGENT: It drops on December 21st, 2012!) because when I would write these arrangements, I had certain go-to chords- especially on piano, which is primarily self-taught. These chords were minor chords, which makes my debut sound pretty sad and sadistic. 

So with this new record, I'm trying to break away from writing in that style and find new ways to develop a song. I don't want to make another sad record- I'm done being sad! I am putting the finishing touches on maybe four new songs right now- one of them is a song called "The Wild Side" (tentatively) that I'll probably be posting a snippet of on my Soundcloud in a few days. Here's some of the lyrics.

I miss the heart wrenching stories//and mardis gras strings//the smiles on our face//and all of our dreams//but everything I miss about you//I miss about New Orleans

(((xxxo)))

Nick

LINK TO MY SOUNDCLOUD: www.soundcloud.com/acensoredsunlight

LINK TO MY MUSIC ON ITUNES: http://itunes.apple.com/us/artist/a-censored-sunlight/id458006911

love to everyone, please be sure to listen to all my music and continue spreading the word <3

PITCHFORK

On a lighter note, I am going to the Pitchfork Music Festival tomorrow! I'm seeing Flying Lotus, Sleigh Bells, and Danny Brown. My dad is taking me, wants to see Schoolboy Q. Very, very excited! Hopefully one day, I'll perform in this kind of thing! *crosses fingers*

HARDCORE BLOGGING FOR HEALING

In a post from way back, I mentioned how well my group of friends functions. How we are what we are and don't care what people think?

I was wrong. I think. 

My group of friends... isn't a stereotypical group of people. Most schools and places have the standard groups of people that everywhere has- jocks, preppy girls, nerdy guys, nerdy girls, band geeks all that- 

I don't know 100%, but based on stereotypical things like that, I really can't say we fit into the standard.

I guess you could call us those people who sort of watch the rest of the socialsphere from the outside and judge it like we're involved. Now, I didn't always think it was like that. But with recent drama going on with my friends, I'm starting to think that more and more. 

I was starting to feel like my friends were sort of buddying up and everyone sort of had a "best friend" in the group who they were extra close to, even though we were all really close. My conflict was, I felt like everybody else in my group of friends did, and I had nobody like that. I was starting to feel... optional. Like when we all went to go hang out, I wasn't the first to get called. I wasn't necessary.

I have my own issues, however, and I was thinking to myself maybe I'm just overreacting and stressing out about something that I'm just blowing out of proportion. But no matter how much I told myself that, I continually felt left out and strange... it didn't feel like it had in the past. 

So, just to have some sort of closure on the situation, I decided to test it on someone who I thought I could trust and go to in confidence to see how they reacted if I tried to explain myself. What I got was the biggest explosion of rude judgmental behavior thrown in my face. I was hurt and I didn't know what I wanted to do.

I still don't know what I did to be treated like that. I made up with my friends, but the feelings haven't gone away. Everything is a song lyric I guess, though. I try to invest myself in things like the album so I don't have to focus on worrying myself over something that still could potentially be nothing. I hope I didn't hurt anyone I care about. 

12.21.12

All versions of Bloodlines will be released on December 21st, 2012. 

(((xxxo)))

Less Slack, More Blog

I promise. No for real tho I'm like gonna get back on this blog. I make a lot of super important announcements on here.

XRQ

I've written a treatment almost, for a new record. I know it's way too early to be planning a thing like this, but like I've said before, I really never stop writing, and Bloodlines has been finished in that respect for a long time now, and I don't want all these new good songs to go to waste. I'm not sure what I'm going to call it yet, but the mood is going to be a lot different from the stuff you've heard from Bloodlines so far- I'm taking the music in a happier direction. I've been listening to happier stuff, and I'm an overall happier person when I'm writing these songs. The songs that are done already (there are about five) have an irony to them, where the song is very light, but the content is very dark. It's sort of a compromise between my lyrical style, but also my need to make my songs sound different.


I'm constantly writing, so it's really no surprise to people when I have new songs up- Bloodlines has been out of the writing phase for a really long time, I'm just doing a lot of production on it. That doesn't mean I just stop writing. I always write, and then after a long time, I pick out my favorites and make a new set. That's how Bloodlines started, and that's probably how things will start in the future.


I'm a happier person, that's why. I think lyrically, the songs are pretty much consistant with the way I write, but it feels good to have a change of pace with these new songs.

Ride Or Die Btch Track Listing

Oh, right! Since I already put out the single, I figure I might as well put out the track listing for the mixtape while I'm at it.

Ride Or Die Btch
Mixtape by DJ KidsTheseDays


1. Ride Or Die
2. Upstaging The Family Jewels
3. Motorcycle Heart
4. Man Up
5. Heaven Is Deaf (In The Beginning)
6. Captain Silvertears

DJ KIDS THESE DAYS

Hey everyone.

Well, I'm doing a little bit of a side project. At this point, if you've been following me long enough, (and not just through the blog!) you know that I have this undying love for acoustic sadcore music and stuff like that, but I also have this major thing for like pounding club beats. But, with A Censored Sunlight, I can't really do that kind of thing. It just doesn't really fit the theme. If I tried, it wouldn't even be me anymore. But still, I have all this techno/house inspiration that I wanted to put to use, so I started a side project that features house music and electronica. I'm doing a lot of really eclectic production, and  I'm using all these weird samples from songs you've probably never even heard of before, but it's going to be really cool. The project is called DJ Kids These Days, or just KidsTheseDays for short. I'm working on a mixtape right now actually, called Ride Or Die Btch. Sorry to drop all this on you at once, but I've kept this a secret for a while now! The first single is up on my new Soundcloud page, located at www.soundcloud.com/kidsthesedays.

The first single, called "Ride Or Die" is available for streaming here. You can download it too. I plan on making the whole mixtape and then putting it on Bandcamp for free. No obligation, no nothing. Just really good music. I'm sort of just doing this for fun in between post-production kicks for ACS. Here's the link for the song: Ride Or Die (Kids These Days Mix)

Let me know what you think of it. Sound off in the comments section. Read all about the debut EP here, on the ACS wiki: Ride Or Die Btch (KidsTheseDays Mixtape)

(((xxxo)))
A Censored Sunlight

Sweet are the hearts of the passersby

True are the souls of the dead.

Planning Sucks But the Payoff Is Good

Doing a lot of scheduling for some upcoming shows, touring for the EP.
Ill post dates.

Happy Mothers Day

Lesbionest, guys, is there really anyone more important in your life than your mother? If you disagree don't answer that question and bring the rest of us down.

My Love for Oreos Goes Unexplained

Until now.

To be totally honest with all of you, there is no better thing in the world than an entire package of double stuf oreos by your side. i don't care if you think i'm wrong. i know what's right in this world and makes sense, and i know what doesn't.

oreos pushed me through the entire writing process of writing the record. 

call me a heavy gal, but its true. if i didnt have them i would probably have one less reason to live.

anyway

(((xxxo)))

Alive With the Glory of Track

And I'm just a manager.
And I have a super thin jacket for 40 degree weather for the next three hours. AWESOME.

Wow, Somebody's Up Early!

And it's me! Hurray!

But no, really this is actually unusual for me. I'm usually up at like 10:00 on weekends, but the plague of school is always after me I guess. 

i've got a baaad, bad case of the bronch

ew. bronchitis. wah. my ear hurts and so does my throat? has anyone had it? i never have, does it get progressively worse? cos im in some major pain right now.

sound off.

(((xxxo)))

things i don't understand

• love at first sight
• people who cut themselves
• why it was hotter in winter than in spring this year
• why facebook started to suck as soon as i got one
• why people question things that don't need to be questioned (Here's looking at you, science and religion.)
• people who try to bring other people down
• people who hide their emotions
• people who hide their emotions for the sake of the approval of others
• people who care
• people who don't care
• why modern music is popular
• why we still have the lottery if the country is broke
• how to find north, south, east, and west from any point on the earth without a compass
• why people don't buy music anymore
• people who are prime advocates for douchebaggery
• homophobes
• politics
• political jokes
• myself
• 
  

8 posts in and you probably think i'm psycho!

let me explain myself.

I am. but in the best of ways. i'd consider myself really driven and passionate about everything in my life that i value or even have a slight opinion about. i'm not horribly concerned with the approval of the masses. nobody wants to be blatantly weird and outspoken i don't think, but as far as my dying for approval rating goes, i am not high on the scale.

this is why my group of friends functions so well. we are what we are and if you have a problem, fine! i don't associate with judgmental people! the true issue is that there are so few people like that. everybody wants a million people in their business and following their every move day to day. i don't. i am happy where i am, and if i have an opinion, i don't feel like i should need to contain myself just because not everyone on the planet is going to agree with me. that's fine. that's why i do music. that's why i'm me.

(((xxxo)))

all i want is my name in lights. is that really too much to ask?

I don't want to die alone.
but really who does? not anyone i can think of. it's in the human nature to want other people to bear witness to your life. this means oh so much to me. no joke. my goal in life is to make sure that i am remembered for generations to come. i don't care what it is- if i have to revolutionize an industry or change the way people view the everyday- i will go to all lengths to do that. i respect the people who are satisfied with just a good family life where you impact the people thrust upon your life, but they love you unconditionally. when you have kids, and your kids have kids, and those kids have kids, when you aren't around anymore, will anyone really truly remember you back on Earth? 


the chances are slim, i think. not to be cynical, but im a cynic a lot of times. i will make sure my goal is met.

(((xxxo)))

What Would You Do if I Told You That I Loved You?

This is such a huge thing for me.

OH MY GOD.

When people my age try to throw the words "I Love You" at each other when they've been dating for two weeks, REALLY? when you are in your first year in high school, you do not... i repeat, DO NOT know what love is. you don't. really. so stop.

those three words launch you into a completely separate realm from other people in your situation. its not a term that you just throw around like its nothing. if you mean it, and you know it, say it. if you are just saying it to fit with the crowd, then you really need to rethink your life. i dont want to hate on anyone's decisions, but if you are going to say it, mean it. with all your heart. that is all. 

(((xxxo)))

new song. tokyo sways.

raise your glass for the couple of the century
when you look at us it seems like it was meant to be
but tokyo sways in a unified voice to your r.e.m.

i'm losing my religion to the falsified practice of your love
i hate how you know im right

i hate how the memory of you
reflects in everything i do
i tried to wash them away with every word i say
but it was no use

i looked temptation right in the face
and spat in every gift horse's eye
but im still left alone in the dust
just me and my friends, your lies

When Your Friends Act Weird And You Don't Know Why, What's a Guy To Do?

i don't know.

but that's life i guess.

My Work Here Is Done

I finally finished writing my record. DAMN.

I have been writing my debut for almost THREE YEARS. The relief to be finished is crazy. But now even more exciting things are coming my way. I have to present my demo to a few people, record the rest, and then I take off into the unknown. Crazy to think about, but isn't that what I signed up for?

(((xxxo)))

Bad Kids

I was up late last night watching Hip Hop POV and I was watching a Lil Wayne interview that I really enjoyed. Now, I'm not saying that I'm a die-hard Lil Wayne fan at all, because I'm really not. I think there are so many fresh new acts out there that deserve more attention than him- as a lyricist, he sounds tired.

But, back to the interview. He was saying that he recently started skateboarding, and found this whole new world and group of friends that he enjoys far more than his typical rap star life style. He loves his life as a rapper, (obviously, who wouldn't in his place?) but he says that there are so many cool underground kids that are just the best people. This made me think.

I know skaters. I'm not friends with them, but I know them by reputation and I think that there's a lot of appeal in the bad kids. Is there this whole other world of cool people that we all just don't know about? I think that when misunderstood people find each other and come together, it's a beautiful thing. Art is made. Life is made. And the skateboarder/badass is born.

It's hard for me to either raise up or slam the bad kids. Lady GaGa pretends to know them, but let's be honest, does she really know what's going on inside her gone-crazy Born This Way persona? Probably not. I don't know them either. But I wish I did.

(((xxxo)))

What is A Censored Sunlight?

You didn't ask, but it's a fantastic question.

A Censored Sunlight is... well, me. Sort of. My name is Nick Malone. My age will go undisclosed for now- it doesn't really matter as long as you're getting something from the blog right? My musical project is called A Censored Sunlight. It's sort of a pseudonym for me, but it really just represents my vision- my perspective on life and how I put it across through music.

And that's my first art kid rant.

Anyway, Nick Malone is a songwriter, I'm a cynic, I'm a wishful thinker. But that's me. A Censored Sunlight, on the other hand is whatever you want it to be. I'm all about having my listeners interpret my music in their own way. I don't want to dictate my own meanings to you- I think the whole point of my musicianship is to make my listeners think instead of just sit there knowing the subject matter. I like dimension- layers and layers of stuff for you to think about. Like the Trident Layers of music.

But enough about me. I'll post about my music every once in a while, but this is just me and my journey to ultimate hipsterdom, and hopefully, my breakthrough moment in music. Enjoy.

(((xxxo)))